Don't give up on the choreography. Stick with it. Get frustrated. Be amused. Become curious. Celebrate the small progress. And one day...click! And when that happens - you have just opened the door... You have opened yourself up to find freedom within the move and beyond your habits.
I have known for a while of a person close to me who was on a losing battle of bowel cancer and over the weekend after talking to her, we both knew it was getting worse. Since Saturday, I have felt this body-emotion connection profoundly. Having done nothing different with diet, exercise, sleep etc... I have felt mentally drained and foggy and physically, heavy-limbed and tired.
So much of our energy and attention is stuck in remembering the past or yearning for the (imagined-better) future - both of these things can leave us feeling unsatisfied...The only thing that is guaranteed to us and that we have control over is this very moment! If we put our energy into making THIS moment joyful, we would be more helpful, productive, compassionate people.